the xx and the holidays

people would always talk about the xx, how amazing they were and how much they loved them. i had absolutely no idea what they were talking about until now. laziness was really the only thing that was holding me back from this beautiful band and their music. i looked them up on youtube yesterday and i can now officially say that i've found another favourite band. so i used my itunes money and bought two of their albums. i highly recommend their music.

but enough of that, i'd also like to talk about christmas, which was just yesterday.

basically for me, the holidays are a mix of only two things: happiness, and guilt for eating all of the chocolate despite my strong metabolism. one thing i've realized this season though, is how much things have changed. if things were like how they used to be, i wouldn't be here but at a pub with my aunts and uncles and cousins for our annual boxing day get-together. that's not all. my great grandma and grandpa didn't come down from their cottage this year, and i had christmas at my dad's house on the 23rd instead of on christmas eve. the thing that i've realized is, the older i get, the harder it is to try to desperately grasp onto my fleeting childhood and the way things used to be. the older i grow, the more things change. and its the same for everyone. and i find that quite sad. traditions get too old, and people move on with their life. when i'm still here, stuck in the same place with the same expectations for the holiday season every year. i don't mean for this to sound like a depressing post, because christmas is supposed to be joyful, but i was slightly depressed because of all of the changes. and i also realized that people are more sad than happy around christmas time anyway.

but one thing that will never change is the memories of how christmas used to be. its like that cheesy quote, "people change but memories don't". so that's still reassuring in a way.

happy holidays everyone.