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i think they were onto something when they created padded rooms. there's times when the blood in my brain runs too hot and banging my head against a wall seems like the only way to get relief. on fire? tuck and roll. anxious? padded room. these solutions are primevally simple. i know this makes me sound insane, but there are people out there who think homeopathy can cure mental illness (or anything else for that matter), so i could sound a lot worse. these days i am thinking a lot about how addiction is a derived problem. what i mean is that addiction is simply a coping mechanism for some original problem, like depression. i get what people mean when they say that addiction is a disease, but i think it's more the medicine. the medicine is poison of course, and it will kill you slowly, but if you're going to take it away, you need to replace it with more medicine. sometimes that's ayahuasca and a good spiritual beating; sometimes that's swapping one drug for antidep